Update....

Well, we finally have an update. The boys birth-mother had the baby Tuesday morning, obviously she was not in labor on Friday! The case has been referred to the county in which she resides. So, now we are waiting on them to make a decision. They have 3 choices...she can try and parent, they can remove the baby to a home within that county, or bring the baby to us, and transfer to the county that are boys are in. We are just patiently waiting to find out one way or the other. At this point, we would just like to hear what the final decision is.

I have been praying that God would give me compassion, mercy and grace as I deal with the situation of birth-moms. Birth-moms in the cases that I have dealt with, have not made that heroic decision to place their children for adoption, but rather their rights are being taken away. I have such admiration for the birth-mothers that choose to give their children a better life, make the choice to do what is best for their babies, but this birth-mother hasn't done this. She has chosen to parent, and have her children removed from her. She has made mistakes that will forever impact her children, I struggle with her selfishness, I struggle with her incompassion. This struggle has consumed me from the moment I met my boys, and even Mina, when we were dealing with her birth-mom.

I have prayed, and asked others to pray that God would give me compassion. God has. He answered that prayer. I am seeing things through different eyes right now, and in the past couple of weeks. I am seeing this situation through the eyes of a girl who may forever lose her children, through a girl who is devestated at the possibilty of losing this new baby. My heart is heavy for her. On Tuesday night, I talked with an advocate for my boys, she also works with the birth-mom (BM). She informed that the BM had no idea that the new baby might be taken, she has bought a cradle, a crib, a car seat, etc, etc. THis baby is her new begininng. She wants a chance to prove that she can do it, to prove that she has changed. That notion brought me to tears, it still does. I cannot imagine, having just had Aidan, and someone walking in to tell me they were taking him away. All of the preparation she has done, all for nothing. On the otehr hand, she has made bad choices, and these are the consequences of her actions. How many chances should she get?

My heart aches for her to know Jesus Christ. I want to share the gospel with her, I want her to make a choice, that will forever impact her life as well as those around her. The Ultimate Decision. God has brought me to a very different place these past few weeks. I'll be honest, until 3 weeks ago, I didn't even pray for her. I was jealous of her, she carried these babies, and MIchel adores her, no matter what she has done, he adores her. I couldn't see past that. How silly, how selfish? I am a Christian , and I am called to a higher standard, and I am ashamed that I acted that way. I am ashamed that it took me this long to know that the Ultimate goal, the reason we engaged in foster care was for the sake of eternity.

Please pray for her, pray for her new baby! Pray that God will reveal Himself to her in a mighty way. Pray that she will come to know Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior.


Sorry for sappy post, but this has weighing me down lately! I love my boys, and I absolutely want to know that if they go home to her that they are being raised by a Christian woman, a God-fearing woman, a woman that loves Jesus more than anything else. Please pray fervently for her salvation! I know I am!