It's been an interesting day...

Day? Week! It's been an interesting week! When I got home on Monday, I literally hit the ground running. I am worn out. I have had several clients being presented to birth moms this week, and had to make a 100 agency and attorney calls. That is just work stuff, I also have 4 kids, 2 dogs and a hubby to take care of. Of course, I jumped right back into our daily activities, school, church, gymnastics, soccer, etc. So, I am very tired. I intend to catch up on sleep this weekend.

Anyway, we had visitation today. It went well, I think! M & C's birth mom was about 17 minutes late, which means we didn't have to wait any longer. After 15 minutes, we can leave per DFCS rules! So, we stayed an extra 2 minutes, and she showed up. She was excited to see the boys, and M was very happy to see her. C still isn't sure, he has been with us for the majority of his life, he doesn't remember her like M does. I know it disappoints her, but it's not his fault, he is still a baby! So, Emory and I were eating lunch, when we got a text that she would like to talk with us. So, I very quickly(I left Emory)made my way over to them. I sat down right next to her, she was holding M, and C was sitting with our social worker. She really just wanted to talk. IT went really well. Anyone who knows anything about this situation knows how UNUSUAL this is. She really hasn't had much to do with me, but what an answer to prayer. I am glad that the boys were able to see what looked like unification! We talked about how badly she wants them back, and I told her how badly we wanted to keep them, I told her that we loved them so much, and I wanted her to know that they are loved more than she could ever imagine. We cried together, and I think we BONDED! :) Seriously, I think we bonded. I told her that we are trusting God, trusting his perfect plan. I told her that I know that God will prepare my heart for His plan, no matter what that is, I told her that no matter what, God loves her, and that HE has a perfect plan for her life. It was the 1st time I was able to tell her about Jesus Christ. I told her that M has accepted Jesus has is personal Lord and Savior. I believe this was God opening a door to much, much more. For the first time in a year, I am more relaxed. I don't know what this means, I don't know if we will keep the boys, but for the first time today, I feel like God just really showed me the importance of one day at a time. I also feel like God reminded me that we are not promised tomorrow with our own biological or adopted children, you never know what tomorrow holds, and foster care is much the same way. I feel like we live court date to court date, that is silly. I am not doing myself or my family any good that way. Please continue to pray for me, pray that God will continue building this relationship between M and C's mom and Emory and I, pray that He would continue opening doors for me to witness to her, how great would it be to see her life transformed by Jesus Christ. That is my prayer, that she would come to know Jesus Christ as her personal Lord and Savior!!!

I guess that is all for now. I feel so silly for being so worked up about this visitation today, I have stressed and stressed about it. God took care of it all, and gave me more peace than I could have ever hoped for! Today was good, very very GOOD!!!